i was really not in the mood to do anything right now..too angry to do anything..HATE PEOPLE WHO KEEP BREAKING THOSE PROMISES THAT THEY MADE..I GOT ENOUGH OF IT..i also hate been monitor of what i doing. not in the mood to do anything. is there any kind soul out there to cheer me up right now.. Email me ok..i not online..as i been monitor.

Before i forget, what is life? well to what i understand, i come up with an equation

STUDY + WORK = LIFE

LIFE = STRESS

so what is stresS? can someone tell me...

i haVe to change my blogskin as there i accidently delete some code and i have n0 idea what the code are..miss my bugs buNny skins alot..hope that you guy will like this skins too..will try to complete the whole stuff such as update as soon as possible..by the way, i inculde some new thing in my profile..do check it out and don't forget to tag...

quite fRee now so decide to come in to update abit on what i did yesterday..i was having my RT and it was strEss..and i did quite ok..hoping that by puting in the counting down system in my blog it will help me to think that i do not have much time left and motivate me to study harder..must worK hard..


must get back to work now...

Monday is not my day..going to be under depress soon..got enough of all my laptop..is either lagging or got virus..such a day to waste on trying to fix the laptops..

well..was damm tired and laZy to study for exam now..time is running out for me..Who can help me??

Recently, while chating on the phone and also MSN with a few friends. All said that I'm a people with no life. Meaning that i been working too much and i did not have time for myself..yes i agree to what they said as i really felt this way too.. Who can be there to help me to overcome all the problem that i'm going to face?? No one. Been over independent is not really a good choice as you had to look after all yourself..i'm still young and people like my age all are happily enjoying their life and there no such thing as finance problem to them what about me?. People was so surprise that i worked so hard at my age and asked me why i worked so hard?.. The answer is i'm supporting myself..it been years already and i been supporting myself since i started working..which was almost 4 year ago..at such a young age i was out in the working world while others only study and they can complain and complain that study is so bored. Yes, i do agree that study is bored, but what to do. At least you need a 'O' level cert in order to get a job unless you are rich than i suggest that you can stop wasting your time and go out to be a boss of your own but please know the market well before you start a business.

Adding to my finance problem, i currently facing a hugr problem...EXAMS!!..i stopped schooling for how long??..no idea where to start..that wrost...

What can a 'paper' do?? Nothing..is true if you trust me..Why do i say so.Well, so what if you got a 'paper' and you got a weak health..i do understand the feeling of a person getting that 'paper' and got a weak health..in the end, they had to choose to live the world..It was a sad thing that i faced losing 2 person in a month. (don't worry it had happen about 4 years back) speaking of them, i should looked back upon myself as i myself was also a person with health problem. I thought of going for a operation 2 years back and almost give up in myself but i didn't as people who suffer more than me didn't give up hope so why couldn't i be more strong than them?..the word operation is still in my mind..no idea how wrost my health is right now as i had stopped going for treatment for a year as i felt that it was a waste of money. Even if i went for the operation, do i still have to suffer? no idea yet..What the rate of me getting out of the operation theatre alive??..10 years back it was like 35% to 50%..what about now??..i don't wish to know..for what i know is that even you got that 'paper' are you going for that path in your live? most people didn't go for that path and change the path and ended up wasting more time in their life.

I going to be overstress soon!!!

I think i shall stop now and continue to study...i do not have much time left..3 papers in nov is really stress..but the good thing is that i can clear it before i reach 2007..but 2007 i still got 1 last exam to go..exam date is not out yet..but i hope to clear all my papers as soon as possible..not point dragging and gragging..

weLL was aBout to faLl asleep soOn That why i here to blog..so tireD..even though gOT thing to do buT i reaLly veRy tired to do so..earlY in the morning weNt to WL there to 'la kopi' for more than a hour lo..if i not wrong almost 3 hours..so long..i also don't know what sHe talking just entertain hEr by saying yes..i know i bad but no choice..wHo ask her to asK to me go over to hEr taBle there to teLl me things. sHe though i nothing to do..but please lo..got lo..feEl like going to ngEe aNn afteR work to see moOncaKe..but i aLso don't know what time i can go ofF and also my leg is pain..HELP....that the moSt saD thing...i goiNg to faLl aslEep soon.....

got to get back to work already...

wAs quite lazY toupdate blog these few days..as promise in my last entries that i will upload some photo..here it is..if you have been reading my entries you will know what the heart is all about..

gOt TODAY from home

cUt out all the paper

this is the heart..

toTal 24 heaRts..

feEl damm saD..i rejected a deal..the deal is not realLy a big deal but beTter than nothiNg..who ask tHem to say want to mEet me in 3 hours and i couldn't make it there..what a waSte..

had no idea why i haTe those agents that introduce jobs very very much..waste of company money. As if we weRe to ask them to get a candiate for us, the amount that we had to pay them is alot and the candiate get back only at a low rate. The company won't know and though that the candiate earn alot till they ask. to my surpriSe, i was quite upsad when i know that a friend of mine went back to the old company that she used to work for and she DID NOT approach the agent but the company and the company thrOw her to the agent. The compaNy want to cut down on cost still give money to the agent. but that friend didn't mind but i felt that the agent will be verY vERy happy as got money fot nothing..

I though of opening a caFe in 5 years down the road..but don't worrY i WILL NOT EVER APPROACH ANY AGENTS no maTter how big or small the cafe is as I DON'T WISH TO THROW MONEY TO THEM AND MY STAFF ARE PAID BELOW AVERAGE...i won't be runniNg the shop on weEkdays as i be worKing..yes..that right..i will still be having my full-time job and run a cafe..hopefully i be able to handle that.. the things that i be seLLing and how my caFe will look like i will go anD think about that in for the time being..to be a boss at a yoUng age is noT easY but i knowN of someone who become a boSs at a age of 20 and now had a shop and also a factory (if i not wrong) and going to have a pub soon..he was only 24 this year..to my friEnd who wish to seT up an ageNcy, can you kindly throe in your money to my cafe instead of there..i will draw up a mini proposal for you if you want..despite of my busy schedule..

it been a wEek since i blog..welL actually got some photo to upload here but was abit lazy to do so..was tired and i had not beEn resting for weEks..no idea i worKed non-stop for how many days..but i don't think i can win maRy,khai Ling they all..was quite busy these few days but things are geTting betTer..sudDenly got a though of eating sushi now..no idea why..i didn't get to eat for the whole day till now..weNt to purChase breakfASt for a friend but as i do not want to eat macdonald therefore i neVer eat and as for lunch too..but now i having my diNner..i cook some noDdle at hime..no choice..no idea who to ask to go diNner with me..if anyone who loOking for a company to have meal with dodrop me a message at my tagboard and i will get back to you!!

haiz..at this hour of the day i stilL in offiCe..so streSs..nEed to rush my work...so lonely too...anyone can buy me dinnEr and send oVer..i know the answer is no..i hungry..beTter get down to work liao...so can go home early...

reAlted stoRies

so tired...actualLy doN't feEL like cOming to woRK on a moNday..vERy tired to be a 7-11 ok..SO bored now..don't fEel like doing my woRK..but no choice GOt to do...don't know wheRe to go for lunCh laTer..hungRy...oveR the weeKend didn't reAlly eat muCH..busy that why...poOr me..

some iNteresting thing haPpen laSt friday at wOrkbecause of a stOol..C aSk J where the stOol that she lent her. J returned her a stOol that was nOt her..i felt funny cause all the stool is the same and hOw can she know which is her..aNd to my surprise she say her got print on it and we suspect is that..which we say shpuld be her but we also not verY sure..who ask her to buy her oWn stool..

NeED to gEt baCK to wOrk already..still goT alot of thing to be cleaR...

I JUST HATE PEOPLE TO GIVE ME EMPTY PROMISES


IF YOU THINK YOU BELONG TO THIS GROUP I'M SORRY BUT TO SAY YOU ARE NOT MY FRIENDS....

NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE..MY FRIENDS FOR YEARS, MY SISTERS OR BROTHERS OR EVEN MY BOYFRIEND OR HUSBAND...

YOU ARE NOT FIT TO BE MY FRIENDS!!!

Was ovER tired yesterday that i diDn't update my blog..as mention in the last entries abOut the my speEch to my teachers..in my schOol life there aRe only a few teachER that i think i wouLd remember for life...they are Mrs Malzan, Mr nG BC, Mr Lim SC, Ms aNg HL, Ms Neo SE and MrS F. Teo ..these 5 teaChers..

Mrs MalzaN is mt primaRy 4 maTH teaCher and the way that shE teaCh her studeNt is differENt from otheR teaChers..she is a cariNg perSon who will hElp stuDENt who is weAK in maThas in extra leSson anD when exam is comIng, everyone had to go fOr the extra clAsses..sHe the one whO give me intrest in math..

Mr Ng is my primaRy 5 & 6 chinEse and form teaCHer..fROm his recoRds aT thE time that i finish my prImary scHoOl life, he told us thaT no one under him has fail chineSe befoRe all paSs..he was indeEd a great teaCHer who aLso knoW how to see fortune. He is alSo rich anD remembEr him teLling us thaT ifwe eVen gEt into NUS or NTU muSt go baCk and finD him as he wiLl give us S$500( not sure if it is S$500 or wat..so long already) each..iF i nOt wrOng, he haD retired as a teAcher..

Mr liM is a math teaCher whO teaCh me iN my seCOndaRy 1 aNd remember me nOt alWay listEniNg in class But i still know whAt he trYing to teaCh..what he teaCh i felt that is a wAste of my time as aLl is like bEen tauGht in primaRy scHool and that how i alwAy bEen toP in clAss for maTh..aS stated in my rePort bOok for the entire yeaR math as in teSt or exam, i scoREd 88%..maintain at the same rate..sadly he leAve tHe scHOol aFter mhy liFe in sEcondary 1 aNd weNt to otHer schoOl to teAch..

Ms aNg is my sEcoNdary 3 and 4 maTHs (express) teaCher..when i firSt in hEr clASs she had only about half a yeaR of experience in teaching and remember me going to he claSs for the first time bEen so extra as i had to change claSs during maTh leSson and i felt damm weird and the clAss is veRy smaLl. she was the first teaCHer who fail me in my maTh teSt..thAt was ny first clasS teSt aNd fail but the reSt of the clAss also fail and we got a re-teSt..but i juSt pAss for the re-teSt..the sEcOnd class teSt is also the unforgetten as i was top iN clAss and i was vERy surprisE by that as bEen in the norMal streAm i never expect me to paSs with such a gOod grade in the eXPress streaM and this made me believe and not to quit my exprEss math class with her and she had bEen a caRing teAcher to us..teAch for half of the time and the other half she wiLl be walking around and hElping those in neEds while the rest do the woRK. i like this method of teAching as it woN't waste the rEst of the studenT time buT at the eNd of secondary 4 i had to take 'N' and 'O' leVel math and it wAs strEss but she was the one whO ask me to concentrated on 'N' level after which i gOt 2 weeks for my 'O' level..it was verY streSs ok..

Ms neO is oNLy my math teacher during sEcondary 5 bUt is my class sEc 4 math too but i was not undeR her..only during the 'N' period thEn i weNt to her for revision paPer aS i haD no idea of whaT the 'N' leVel math is aLl about and over all i got an 'A' for math ok..all studied by myself..sEcondary 5 i didn.t reaLly listen to her clAss in the first 2 month as i was waiting for my result as to retake or not..but i gOt a B which alot teaCher including her to ask me to retake to gEt a beTter grade therefore i retake it but ended up with the same result but my schoOl exam i got an 'A' even without studying and 'O' i did study and even felt that 2005 math is more easy than 2004 but what goes wroNG..still wonderiNG...

Mrs teO taUght me chemistry for 1 and a alf yeAr siNce secondaRy 4 and what i liked mosT is her teaChing to her student one by one or in a smaLl group as she tent to be more caring aNd know what is eaCh perSOn problem..rembeRing that during the study breaK, she tauGht a small group who went to scHool for revision evEry single topic again and that makeme more interested in chemistry moRe than physics which I like..


i got 4 cuts on my right hand..so stupid of me been so kiNd anD go help other and in the eNd gEt cuTs on my hand..it hurt if it got in touch with waTer..this whole wEek was so busy for me..everydaY OT..so streSS...

looKing forwArd to a bEtter wEek...

wiShing aLl teAchers a haPpy teAchers' daY!!


i'm veRy tired now..hope that i cAn finish wOrk on the dot laTer..i dOn't waNt any laSt mintue wORk..i had nOt bEEn going home eaRly..vERy tired eVerydaY OT like Mad...

i heRe to blog not to cOmpLain but fOr a reAson..i beliEve that you aLL did reAD TODAY..hOpe that you can do yOur paRt by folding the 'heArts' and drop it in the poSt box as sinGtel will donate $1 for every heart that you fold and drop in the posT box beFore 4th September...money will be donate to 5 organization. For more detail grab a copy of TODAY/8-days/i-weekly..i doing my pArt..hOpe you alsO...


i going to sleEp..if i free later...i will update more on my thanks you speeCh to my teaChers..i also nEed time to think too right...let me go sleep first..if not i be laTe for work again...as usual..


goOd night...(by the time you read should be gOod morning...unlEss that Jian Wei is online and kEep reFreshing my URL at this time of the day to cheCk if i did update my blog...)